Thoughts of today

My parents and I both have different priorities for what I should do with my life.

For me, music comes first , then homework and finally socializing with friends. 

Today I received a disappointing transcript. I am ranked 56 out of 240. Many thoughts race through my mind why of course that's the top 25% but really is that good enough? 

I was in a state of mixed emotions. I spend atleast two hours practicing in my music and spend the rest on homework. Though sometimes I don't get things accomplished. 

I slack off half the time in education and I'm always constantly involved in music and practicing. I just wonder what would happen if I actually commit to education. 

Yes, I am disappointed that I know I can do better but I'm just overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. 

Music is always first it's something I will be doing all my life. 

I just honestly don't know.

Unknown artist

For all of you that didn't know I use to draw. I don't what happened but I've stopped drawing. I guess drawing was a hobby and since I don't even have time to sleep or do homework I suppose drawing has been removed from my to do list. Enjoy my old drawings. 

Painting

Girl

Naruto

Foot 

Cello 

Frog 

I don't even know. 

Even though I don't draw anymore I still take pictures. To a certain extent I think photography and drawing are similar. Both each show to an idea on a page through an image. 

Popularity

The word "popular" ring in my ears and I cringe to the sound of it. 

In high school there's this ladder. There's the lower class, middle class and the higher class. It's established once you get to the high school. It's just an unwritten conduct.

I'm not a fan of this system but we live in a world where people with money triumphs first and people with none finishes last. 

More money = popularity

In ALHS, our school isn't as bad as other schools. But the system still exists. 

Popular is just a title. I think none of that should matter. 

Loneliness

Loneliness lurks everywhere. It's always there like a shadow. No one can escape it. 

You might be engulfed with friends but no loneliness will strike even then. 

Loneliness brings out sadness but not always. 

Loneliness isn't a bad thing. It's just there. 

Like the air we breath in.